Being October- Opportunity

So as per my previous post, I am an October.
It is really wonderful to be married although we have only been for a little while, we were dating for 6 years before marriage.
Which according to many seems to be forever.

The difference is, with marriage comes more opportunity.
More opportunities to be better than you were before, to make better choices, to change your routines, to give more of yourself.

If you never lived with your spouse before marriage, you are suddenly living with someone else and your space is no longer your own. Everything you do has to be done keeping your spouse in mind.

On Wednesday, I gave my testimony at community.
My life, how I grew up, how I came to know Jesus, my experiences, mistakes and who I am now.

This was the first time that I realized that I had grown up rather violently and that my childhood, although not all bad, had many painful moments.
My parent's, sister and friendship "stuff" has influenced my life and I am different now than I was before.
I cannot go back to being the same as before because God had restored and made me new, therefore I was moving forward into the new... I cannot be the same as before.

I have to decide daily to not live the life demonstrated to me as a child.

Since the day of our wedding (11 April 2015), I have decided to take everyday as an opportunity for change, challenge and growth.
I realise I have a choice in how to reACT, how to BEhave and to be RESPECTful towards Kurt.

I am no longer single, a one woman show, me, myself and I.
Everyday of my married life I am joined, connected and in covenant with my husband.
There is no out!!
If I am destructive and dont take each opportunity to be better, I will destroy my life and my husbands because he is a part of me.

This October has been given an opportunity to be great, live in fullness and finally feel like she is doing something pleasing to God.
Marriage is wonderful when you do it right, my husband makes my life really wonderful, easier, lovely and full.

What opportunities do you have to be better?
What are you doing to choose to do when things get tough?