2016

Oh wow, the past year flew by so fast.
Actually it was the busiest, most challenging year yet… My job and being newly married took all the life I had in me.
I found myself being so extremely tired every single day, struggling to lift my head and go on.

I went through stages of anxiety, frustration and anger but I’m glad that I am off that train.

I accept that 2016 will be a busy year, lots to do, lots to see and much to learn.

I am really praying for a peaceful year, I need peace, more sleep, less anxiety and lots of Jesus.

I don’t really like the idea of ‘New Year’s Resolutions’ however I think that one should set some sort of goal for the year.
In church 2 weeks ago we were told to have a look at 2015. Think about what you learnt and then go into 2016 doing things differently, choose two / three Fruits of the Spirit and ask God to grow those in your life.

I have briefly thought about it… there are many fruits to choose from but what is it that I know I need help with?

Galatians 5:22-23 (NIV)

²² But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, ²³ gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

My friend told me that I should be careful what I ask God for because He will certainly challenge me on those things.

God knows best and everything He does is for my good. I am content knowing that He will help me.

The fruits that I have chosen are: Love, Faithfulness and Self-Control.

Love, being willing to love no matter the person, situation or frustration. Selfless Love.

Faithfulness, to all that I commit myself to. Following through and being faithful

Self-Control, controlling my anger, irritation, tongue as well as my eating and health.

After spending the festive season drifting away on my little break , forgetting that I have to build my relationship with God everyday or else I will disappear.

I had a good look at myself and I am praying for a better year than 2015 could ever be, so this year has a lot to prove because I got married last year.There is not much that could beat that.

 This is the year of being #healthy #wealthy and #wise 

 

Being October- Opportunity

So as per my previous post, I am an October.
It is really wonderful to be married although we have only been for a little while, we were dating for 6 years before marriage.
Which according to many seems to be forever.

The difference is, with marriage comes more opportunity.
More opportunities to be better than you were before, to make better choices, to change your routines, to give more of yourself.

If you never lived with your spouse before marriage, you are suddenly living with someone else and your space is no longer your own. Everything you do has to be done keeping your spouse in mind.

On Wednesday, I gave my testimony at community.
My life, how I grew up, how I came to know Jesus, my experiences, mistakes and who I am now.

This was the first time that I realized that I had grown up rather violently and that my childhood, although not all bad, had many painful moments.
My parent's, sister and friendship "stuff" has influenced my life and I am different now than I was before.
I cannot go back to being the same as before because God had restored and made me new, therefore I was moving forward into the new... I cannot be the same as before.

I have to decide daily to not live the life demonstrated to me as a child.

Since the day of our wedding (11 April 2015), I have decided to take everyday as an opportunity for change, challenge and growth.
I realise I have a choice in how to reACT, how to BEhave and to be RESPECTful towards Kurt.

I am no longer single, a one woman show, me, myself and I.
Everyday of my married life I am joined, connected and in covenant with my husband.
There is no out!!
If I am destructive and dont take each opportunity to be better, I will destroy my life and my husbands because he is a part of me.

This October has been given an opportunity to be great, live in fullness and finally feel like she is doing something pleasing to God.
Marriage is wonderful when you do it right, my husband makes my life really wonderful, easier, lovely and full.

What opportunities do you have to be better?
What are you doing to choose to do when things get tough?